I need help please, i need help and guidance because i have nobody else for this now?

I'm really sorry to day this but you need to break this off. For good. Ive been there done that a little differently but this is an unhealthy relationship and it can lead to worse problems for YOU. Let it go honey. Move on. I know its hard but you WILL find someone better. & don't stay with him through guilt! He, too, will find someone else. As for you... YOU CAN DO BETTER. If he dont want nothing to change then it wont. All your doing is punishing yourself and he sounds like an attention wh0r3. DO WHAT MAKES ***YOU*** HEALTHY AND HAPPY! Best of luck sweetie <3